Sometimes, I just forget.
I forgot you were here, so I thought I wasn’t safe
I forgot you were here, so I went looking for you everywhere
I forgot you were here, so I acted like something was wrong
I forgot you were here, so I believed in should and shouldn’t
I forgot you were here, so I told myself I was damaged and
in need of repair
I forgot you were here, so I went looking for love
I forgot you were here, and it all got so complicated again
I forgot you were here, despite the reassurance of everything
I really thought you weren’t here
(It’s easily done)
You’re only everywhere, after all
There’s every single thing singing your praise
And me, gloriously missing the point
I thought I was outside of you, cut off, adrift
Now I discover I’m deep inside, held safe
Nothing to defend, nothing to defend against
Heartbreak the only viable option
Here’s the miracle:
I thought you weren’t here, even though I bathe in you
Now, there’s nothing but love
For those who have loved me and those who have hurt me
For those who left and those who stayed
For all we’ve said and for all that’s been left unsaid
For all we’ve done and for all that hasn’t been completed
For every look, every nod, every smile
For every yes and for every no
I move or I don't move
I write or I don't write
All utterly equal, all movements of the same stillness.
