This Silent Vow

With no thought to what I ought

I do just what’s required

The absence of rules, observances and resolutions

Brings a deeper resolve,

A wordless commitment:

To meet whatever calls

No longer abandoning abandonment, fearing fear,

Rejecting rejection or leaving loneliness on its own

To dwell in abandoning, fearing, rejecting and leaving

Until their time is done

This silent vow

Is to be here for it all

To consecrate all that’s been held mundane

To see the worldly in the divine

To move my allegiance from those false idols  

(What wasn’t and what may yet be)

To worship at the altar of what is

To stand, naked and vulnerable, as I am

No longer sheltering in the shade

Of beliefs, conditions, ideas or excuses

To emerge into the light of now, blinking

And a little timidly, at first.